It was back in 2019 that COVID came upon our world and a lockdown occurred. I was living in Chapala, and isolated in my home high above the city. I paid for everything digitally and had good food delivered by Pancho's Deli. I lived well.
My daily routine included preparing meals and eating on my terrace. I accomplished two major activities: a. I created a book, "la dulce vida," and "moments, or doodles." I created a book of 420 pages answering questions about my life. In addition, I created 190 moments or doodles. So, I lived well.
BEFORE the lockdown, I was on my journey into Mexico, and adventure. I was escaping being depressed for 3 years as i had been laid off from my primary work, and was older at age 58, and seemingly did not find work. I came to the second-best climate in the world and left SAD (seasonal affective disorder) (form of depression) behind. I was happy.
AFTER the lockdown I seemed to be different: I have noticed that I am super sensitive, so very emotional, where I experience highs and lows. I am also continuing to follow Abraham-hicks and move away from all people, places or things that are NEGATIVE and move toward all people places or things that are POSITIVE. I have moved away from TOXIC people. I have cleaned the house.
I have found that life is quieter and less festive. The town of Chapala is less festive, seemingly with fewer des files (parades). Within this context I have been sad more often.
I have settled in to a life that is quieter, with fewer friends. I am resolved to re-build a more festive life, and meet new people. I am cautious as the great secret is that up to 40% of North Americans exhibit signs of mental illness. To me this includes drug addicts and alcoholics. I stay away.
I love being in my home, so that is my preference. I do not want to meet new people, as I do not trust that they are healthy. I only want positive people around me, those that lift me up and encourage me.
Before the lockdown, I never thought of the future. After the lockdown i now know life is finite, so there is an end. I do not know what the future holds. I do not know where I should be. I just characterize it as weird.
INSIGHT: LONELINESS How Social Isolation Affects the Brain. Being alone greatly changes some brain regions more than others. January 7, 2023 | Reviewed by Vanessa Lancaster
Physical distancing, quarantines, and lockdowns increased the incidence of depression in adults and adolescents. Past psychological studies documented that people experiencing prolonged social isolation, such as orphans and empty nesters, have an increased risk of depression and insomnia.